It's February..what..

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It's month two of the year 2014, wow, where did January go? I think it's been long since I've updated so I guess I'll do that now. 

Well, it keeps on snowing over here. :I I love snow but there is WAY too much of it right now. It's so cold outside and then like a sauna in side my school. It's really bad. Apparently my place is supposed to get 3 feet? I've heard everything from that, a couple inches and nothing. I have no idea what to believe so I'm just going to wait until it actually happens. 

I'm talking about personal things now so if you don't want to read, that's perfectly fine with me. I just gotta get it out somewhere. 



Meh, life for me is near it's worst...at least I feel like it is..I'm losing everything, my grades are starting to slip up, I don't talk to my two best friends as much anymore unless I'm literally in the same room as them and I actually don't talk to many of my friends that I used to. 
I made terrible, creepy, unwise decisions that lead to me making my ex hating me more than she already has. And I don't mean to do that...I just, I just expected a fairy tale life too much, to think it would actually work out, I was a fool for believing. I still am. My latest poem "Conflicting Emotions", it...it's exactly how I feel about what's happened between us. I don't deserve anything, especially her love but, I can't help but want her back and feel angry at the same time.
I dunno, I'm really confused and I don't know what to do..

Every since our break-up, I just feel like a major fail. A failure to my friends, my parents, myself and to her...I'm...I've started doing bad bad things to hopefully get my thoughts out of the negativity zone but it just doesn't work..

I don't know what to do anymore..writer4life724, I know I said I was okay but I really am not. I'm sorry for lying..Anyone who actually read to the bottom, got any life tips?..


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You're forgiven, and yes emotions are hard to deal with sometimes, especially when a lot is going on. If you need to talk about things, you know I'm always open. One other thing to keep in mind is that you're not alone going through all this (I'm going to a counselor to keep my head on straight and figure out how to deal with negative thoughts). Things do get better; believe me, they've slowly been getting better for me on my end, and have been since sixth grade. But again, you're not alone; just keep me in mind if you need to talk or vent.